Same Name Dame,

You don't know me, and I don't know you - however your existence in his life makes me somewhat sad. I know this is a new relationship for the two of you, and as such there is no way to tell what will happen to you guys tomorrow let alone weeks, months, years down the road, but knowing that he enjoys you so much is disheartening. Every time he has mentioned you thus far, I get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, and my mood dips severely. You should consider that a good sign for you! If I didn't feel he was so attached to you already, I wouldn't have such a physical reaction.

I don't blame you for liking him, as he is a wonderful man. His happiness is important to me, and if you are what make him happy I'll have to accept that. I do blame myself though. I feel like I should have been there for him a lot sooner. I feel like I could have been in your place if I had been more aggressive in my approach to get to the city. I probably shouldn't have been so afraid to tell him how I felt about him, instead of playing coy for fear that I would seem insane for falling for a man I've met only once, and have spent almost a year talking to at length online. God, it seems insane even writing that now.

Perhaps that is where I will find the most comfort out of this situation. Logic and rationality. There was never going to be anything logical in high tailing it to a big city for a boy I only know through electronic means, and in changing my plans on a slight chance something nice might come out of it. I am where I am, he is where he is, and you are where you are - which happens to be in his mind and by his side.